Self portrait image by yours truly.
Depression has gotten the best of me in these last few months. No, that is a lie. Depression has gotten the best of me most of my life or I could still be clinical classified as having a bipolar disorder. If so, that would explain why I have been feeling
depressed most of my years so far because I have been off my medicine for a long time due to money problems. Either way, I need to be on some medicine soon so I can stop feeling medical depress or whatever I have.
It didn't help my depression when I was constantly barrage with a bunch of problems. I was back stabbed from a friend or two, stop being friends with them completely. I was even lied to constantly about certain things that were supposed to have happened.
To make matters worse, I had to deal with a few legal issues which I wanted no part of but how could I say no when I have no choice in the matter?
Okay, all of my depressing feelings are out. Lets talk about something I always do every year: a new years resolution. I create one every year filled with my expectations and things I want to change about myself this year. I'm going to proudly share my
goals with you guys because I want to. So, here is the following list of things I want do next year or change about myself:
- Obtain medicine to cure my mental disorders.
- Have more friends to talk about my feelings.
- Become more responsible.
- Become more organize with the way I live and my feelings.
- Become more assertive about things I want or say to people, not be boggle down by politics.
- Join a Buddhist sect or obtain more knowledge about Buddhism.
- Go to Pax West or go to the anime convention in California.
- Polish my drawing skills more to do comics and animations.
- Improve my programming skills.
- Upload at least 15 complete lets plays on YouTube.
- Complete 25 RPG(s) on a live stream.
- Obtain a web/server development internship locally in my area.
- Cook new recipes.
- Budget my income more.
- Start a website.
There are many more on channel 4 that I forgot to mention. Nevertheless, I have a few people that I want to try to become that represents the type of person I want to be:
- Muhammad Ali (Boxer)
- Steve Jobs (Apple CEO)
- Bill Gates (Microsoft CEO)
- Gabe Newell (Valve CEO)
- Morgan Freeman (that guy with the great voice)
- Neil Degrasse Tyson (Scientist of stars)
- Michio Kaku (Scientist)
- Leonardo Da Vinci (Artist)
Also guys expect some interesting things in February coming from me and someone else Finally, I think the year of 2014 will be one of my successful years in creativity.