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Depression has gotten the best of me in these last few months. No, that is a lie. Depression has gotten the best of me most of my life or I could still be clinical classified as having a bipolar disorder.  If so, that would explain why I have been feeling depressed most of my years so far because I have been off my medicine for a long time due to money problems. Either way, I need to be on some medicine soon so I can stop feeling medical depress or whatever I have.

 

It didn't help my depression when I was constantly barrage with a bunch of problems. I was back stabbed from a friend or two, stop being friends with them completely. I was even lied to constantly about certain things that were supposed to have happened. To make matters worse, I had to deal with a few legal issues which I wanted no part of but how could I say no when I have no choice in the matter?

 

Okay, all of my depressing feelings are out. Lets talk about something I always do every year: a new years resolution. I create one every year filled with my expectations and things I want to change about myself this year. I'm going to proudly share my goals with you guys because I want to. So, here is the following list of things I want do next year or change about myself:

• Obtain medicine to cure my mental disorders.
• Have more friends to talk about my feelings.
• Become more responsible.
• Become more organize with the way I live and my feelings.
• Become more assertive about things I want or say to people, not be boggle down by politics.
• Join a Buddhist sect or obtain more knowledge about Buddhism.
• Go to Pax West or go to the anime convention in California.
• Polish my drawing skills more to do comics and animations.
• Improve my programming skills.
• Upload at least 15 complete lets plays on YouTube.
• Complete 25 RPG(s) on  a live stream.
• Obtain a web/server development internship locally in my area. 
• Cook new recipes.
• Budget my income more.
• Start a website.